Sunday, February 29, 2004

oh well going back to tekong later today... sighz... bringing back heartaches n pain... feel like taking mc sia.. not feeling very well actually... haiz... better decide qick.. must be at the bus station by 8...

Saturday, February 28, 2004

maybe i should talk abt my tekong days ya.. if not this blog always so sad... well.. i was OOC in 5 days... for those wondering OOC means Out of Course... due to my knee injury i was put OOC..
so life is quite slack inside.. but i still cont to do my push up sit ups n PULL UPS..!!! talk cock wif my instructors n the clerk... help them do admin work n abit of storeman... so it's quite fun lor... haiz... still i am lost... lost in a darkness.... i pray god will lead n guide me out of this..... God Bless~
couldn't sleep the whole night.. went out to meet frenz to ease n forget the pain inside... but when i am alone the sadness n pain seems to return again to haunt me.. to taunt me on how stupid n foolish i have been... i jux wan to forget this now n get on wif my life... to fullfill my dreamz n hopes... n heal this broken heart.........
i dun wan to feel this pain inside anymore...
letting it go away... seems to be the best choice...
no matter how much i cry...
i will still try...
no more of watever u said.. cos i really dun wan to hear it anymore...
be it lies or truths... i really dun wan to bother...
leave me alone is the best u can do...
maybe in the future we will meet again... as frenz maybe...
take care farewell n all the best...
God Bless~

Thursday, February 19, 2004

This will be my last blog till 3 weeks later.. i would like to say.. nothing much actually.. haha.. jux hope everyone will be well... n er.. hmmm.. i will come out darker n stronger.. keke.. =P take care girl.. be well.. =) God Bless~
my life has come to the pt where i am left wif no choice but to go thru it... ns later today at 2.30.. oh well.. i am still confused... does she love me?? i dun know wat she wants really.. anyway.. i can't worry abt this much... i hope she will be happy tat's all i hope for... be happy girl.. u got so many guys loving u so u won't miss me much anyway... got this new guy which u named him as meowies right?? take care.. n dun get urself drunk... =) ya tat's abt it... happy yet sad to say my tears finally couldn't hold anymore.. guess i will feel much better after this.... God Bless..

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

lala.. blogging againz... let's see.. sat went for kel's birthday celbration at a ktv... was coolz ya... heh... then stayed over at chia's place... then played bball.. hmmm.. realise after so long nv play... very sad sia.. shots n dribbling skills.. cannot make it... haha.. then monday... went to settle the transfer of ownership of my fone n internet... troublesome sia... sheesh.. then met chia for dinner.. n i went off to carni again.. haha.. drank quite a bit.. then my fren ask y i so long no go o.. lolz told her i going in ns le.. haha.. 2 more days.. haiz.. oh well.. at least i have nothing left to worry abt... n later today.. my scheule is packed.. haha.. meeting like er 4 frenz.. each at a diff time.. lolz.. oh well.. heez.. God Bless~~ *bleah*

Saturday, February 14, 2004

weee.. i think i am high.. vety high...lalazz... met wis n drank quite alot.. haha... hmmm... maybe i can have a good night sleep after 2 freaking slpless nights.. bah... headache.... heez... God bless~ *oops.. sorry for the terrible spellingz.. heez.. edit it again.. haha..*

Friday, February 13, 2004

a song which is nice... n..
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU

I could hardly believe it
When I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone's swept your heart away
From the look upon your face, I see it's true
So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the
plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before I go

CHORUS:
Tell me how am I suppose to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I suppose to live without you
How am I suppose to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone


I didn't come here for cryin'
Didn't come here to break down
It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end
And how can I blame you
When I build my world around
The hope that one day we'd be so much
more than friends
And I don't wanna know the price I'm
gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than I can take


CHORUS:


(bridge)
And I don't wanna face the price I'm
gonna pay for dreaming
Now that your dream has come true

Thursday, February 12, 2004

hmm.. went to sentosa today.. great i tell u.. quite sometime since i went to the beach during the day.. heh.. should be got a tanned i think... haha.. but didn't get sunburn... haha.. then saw my fave dog..!! golden retriever.. so nice~~~ =P i think i will get one after my ns.. haha.. hmm.. going to watch some vcds i bought... ciaoz~ God Bless~
mambo mambo mambo... can't believe it is my 2nd last time b4 i go in ns.. haha.. but i was fun.. drank quite a bit... =P but didn't get the high i wanted.. anyway.. i think i going to turn in early.. cos going sentosa later.. haha.. aim to get a sunburn i think... =P oh wellz.. God Bless~

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

i dun know if any of u read the funny scribble below.. it's in chinese n it explains my horoscope actually... one part which i so true is tat i am too fast.. so makes the other uncomfortable...


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i need a break.. cos i found out something tat is fault to both.. i need a break.. she needs a break... so i guess a break is wat we really need... time will tell... till tat time comes again..... God Bless..

Thursday, February 05, 2004

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Wednesday, February 04, 2004

so tired today..... too lazy to go work.. sleep n rest for mambo tonight... hee... think i will sleep again.. *aches*

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

Hard work... but it was quite funz... tmr working again.. hopefully it won't be so tiring.. 16 days to go.........

Sunday, February 01, 2004

if time is eternal... then i am living in a world where time is passing me quickly.. i dun have much time left... seems fast.. so many things to do... sighz.. nothing much to say liaoz... seems i said wat i wanted to say le... god bless...

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